"There is a process for kids who are difficult to place in foster care. I say with confidence that if I had not said yes to Zee, he would have ended up in a nursing home, and would likely not have lived.
I was terrified and calm at the same time as I walked down the hall in the hospital to meet him. No one expected me to say yes. Everyone was shocked when I picked him right up, despite all the wires and machines he was attached to.
One day I got a call from the hospital saying Zee had coded, and I needed to come right away. That was less than three weeks after the day we met. I truly thought he would die that day. Thankfully he pulled through, and by the grace of God alone, on November 24, 2014, Zee came home when he was 10 months old.
May 10, 2016 was the big day. A judge confirmed what I had known in my heart all along. He was mine. My son! 'Just as if he had been born to you.'
He got a new name that day: Zee Emmanuel Clark.
Emmanuel means 'God with us.' God has changed us all through Zee's life. He has proven Himself faithful time and again. He has been our Provider and Zee's Healer. I am so glad I gave God my 'yes' that day. I am so glad I trusted Him through the hard times.
Zee's life has taught me a great lesson: he had no one but then God sent me. Even when he wasn't truly mine yet, I was still there, loving him. It is the perfect picture of the Gospel. God pursues us, even if we don't want to be His. He is our Father, whether we claim Him as such or not. And when we do become forever His and trust Him to lead us, He will never leave us or fail us."
- Jenny #standforlife